I Don't Understand...: - Why

I don't understand
   why I started all this
   why I made this choice
   why it's so hard to quit


But most of all
   why no one will help
   why I can't tell a soul
   why I want to be alone
   why I almost had to die to realize what I had become


What I understand most is
   why I had to quit
   why I had to find the strength
   why I love the rain
   why my life is so much better

Found It!!!